Every day is becoming blurred and blended. Violence, racism, destruction, pandemic,
deaths, and natural phenomena is on the rise.
We are fanatic about keeping safe in every area of our lives. Trust is broken and broken again and
again. Life and being Present is
confusing, anxiety-ridden, and we find no real respite. How can this all not affect us body, mind,
heart and soul?
I have a compromised immune system, in fact, I think
most of us do, in some way. We have to
eat, rest, clan and keep ourselves safe, no matter the deniers. Many of us have bad habits and this ups our
chances of becoming ill. We know there
are huge stressors out there and it seems to be sustained with all the bad news
out there in the world. Our sugars are
high from binging on comfort food that cannot comfort us. Our blood pressure heightens with every
traveling out to food stores, to drugstores, to appointments, etc. Many of us do not get enough outside exercise
and so our sleep patterns are disturbed.
Our social interactions are curtailed and we are meant to be social
beings. We are bored and feel blah and
are not using this time to research, to become better informed (not conspiracy
theories as all they do is ad more stressors).
We have lost our structure in our days.
In fact, many have lost joy in life.
Trying to stay present is a challenge. The Present is uncomfortable. We are being forced to stay withdrawn and
this goes against our nature. We are
having to be flexible, to change the way we do things and who we do them
with. Every foray out into the world is
fraught with angst. It is a challenge to
find things we CAN do amidst the many ways we are not able. We do not know outcomes; if it is all going
to get worse, or when it will end, if it will end, how life will be once we do
get through this. And, everyone seems to
be an ‘expert’ and have so many ways they think we should live and live through
this. They are not being kind, at all,
in fact, they tend to be cruel. They are
not keeping us safe, never mind themselves.
It is hard not to judge. More
than ever, we are seriously having to focus on ourselves and taking care of
Self in order to get through this with some sense of care. The old normal may
never be the new normal. There is no
sense in worrying about what we cannot guess at.
The racial tension is the elephant in the room. We can only examine why, what, where, when we
might have caused some issues to be embedded.
There is inequality. Admit
it. And, so many are falling into a
bitterness that does not allow for compassion.
In all the angst, there lies this crowding sense that we may not have
been aware of true history, true beginnings, true reckoning that we had simply
let it be or let it go and thought only of progression, greed, and a sense of
privilege. We can no longer do that and
have any peace of mind. There will be
chaos until we all change our mindset.
When the feelings come, label them, acknowledge them, and recognize our
own part in all of it. It is the only
way to personal peace that has a chance to seep into society as we know it
today.
No matter what we do, thoughts will come. No matter how hard we try to keep a mental
balance, negativity will come. It is
life, after all. To not feel, to not
give thought to how we can change ourselves and our Present and presence, is to
sink into the apathy that created so much of this chaos as it is. Yes, life will loop on and on.
Yes, our changes must loop again and again
until we, ourselves, find a new norm.
May your days be filled with things that you are
passionate about. May we all stay
Present, thoughtful, and willing to change.
Peace be upon us, not boredom nor restlessness, nor defiance nor
defensiveness. That only gives us chaos
rather than compassion for self and others.
This is a global agenda right now.
This is a personal agenda.
Do not
let your days blur one into another. Do
something with yourself.
©Carol Desjarlais 7.8.20
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