Sometimes
we feel like we have been abandoned.
Sometimes we may feel like we have been left behind. There is something huge in feeling loved by
ancestors, or guardians, or spirit guides, or beloved goddesses, or God-male,
or God-feminine. It all depends on how
we look at it.
Once,
the goddess(es) were felt and sisters, in those times, felt comfort drawn from
the Feminine All. Religions displaced
her with a wrathful male god. They effectively attempted to erase the birthing
of the world that had to come from the feminine. We know that things are born of the feminine,
even Jesus was birthed by the feminine, so it is logical that Mother Earth was
as well. When we are shut iut from our
maternal love, wise love, we can wander lost to many spiritual events and sense
of care and compassion and wisdom, IMHO.
I believe we need to study, to attempt to reconnect to that divine
maternal love. I, for one, know the
primal wound of mother and child 'breast closeness', and know the affects right
to my bones. It is no wonder I seek the transformative
wise love of reconnecting to maternal wisdom and love at a spiritual level.
Love,
sometimes, means being thrown into a fire.
It can break us forever, break us for a while, or have us rise like a
phoenix from the fire of hard life down here on earth. By connecting to the information ion the
goddesses, I have come to a place of self-respect. (Sometimes
too emboldened in my rule of being respected, whether I deserve it or not, I
might add.) Connecting tomy deepest self
has taken three years after my grieving, and I am not back to who I was, and
may never be. I am hoping I am to a new
level of myself: A better version.
I
could have become bitter and standoffish.
I could have been full of anger and dissatisfaction. I could have remained closed to what life
might have to offer. I am learning what
is true of myself. I am learning what is
true of others. There are so many layers
of Self. It takes courage to peel off
the layers of in-authentic Self. It
takes integrity in the Present. It means
to allow oneself to be vulnerable. To
dare: to risk; And, to make mistakes and, therefore, try
again. It means going inside and finding
your personal connection with something higher than Self/Ego. I chose to study, research and make truth to
those things I truly believed, in my very gut, rather than be spoon-fed what my
spirit should believe and have faith in.
Bottom line, I had to have faith in myself. Having the understanding of the goddesses,
truly helped me. You might have some
other ways of knowing and believing and I truly wish you to seek that, as long
as it sustains you, for the long climb home.
If
we are suppressing our nurturing of others, if we do more for Self than others,
if we project our dependence on something, someone or someplace else, we have
yet to connect deeper. IMHO. I do not come to this ideology lightly. I studied and got my Bachelors and many more
pieces of paper that began to lead me to a wonderful career where I worked and
was driven to know for myself , then taught other women and youths, and I have
had it shown time and time again, that to remain static and closed means to not
be healed and we will find ourselves back at the same old, same old, again and
again, until we get the lesson. I know
our purpose down here on earth is to live fully, authentically, ourselves and honoring
the Divine ( by whatever name you call this) and to be in a loving relationship
with Self, others, and the Creator. The Goddess image helps me understand and honor
the Divine within me. I wish this for
you.
Blessed
Be!
©Carol
Desjarlais 8.30.18
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